During the lunch breaks in grade school, you’d find me outside, playing in the grass alone, or reading on the swings, alone. If I was playing in the grass, 9 times out of 10, I’d be falling down. Not being the most graceful, my feet would usually find the dips, and gopher holes. With regularity. I can say with certainty that it was because I wasn’t watching just were my feet landed.
How often now, as a grown up, do I still not watch were my feet lead me? I can find myself in situations in which I’m at a loss on how I got there.
My focus was off. I wasn’t looking to what I should be. I can see, with hindsight now, how many times my feet led me off the righteous path, the path He had set for me to walk. What I’m thankful for though, is that He can indeed work things not of His exact choosing, into something so beautiful and awe-inspiring.
Last month, I took a journey on my blog. I knew my writing was all over the place, my focus wasn’t refined and driven. I was sorely lacking the discipline and knowledge for this blog. Still being far from perfect though, I can see that sometimes a little quest is in order. A purposefully set aside time, or project, to refine and sharpen the focus.
We all want clarity. We’d love to have Him talk to us in neon signs, because lets face it, we want to KNOW without guessing or second guessing ourselves, if what we’re going, or about to do, is what HE wants us to do. (You want this too, right? Please tell me I’m not the only one wanting this?!)
God has a purpose for me, just as He has one for you. He’s the giver of our passions, the refiner of our focus, and the lens with which we envision our worlds. The moment we forget this…the edges get blurry, the focus shifts, the passions die. We’re left wondering what our purpose was/is.
I pray that I never find out what it means to see my passions die and the blurry edges. I know that I need to keep my eyes looking to Him, from where my help comes. I challenge you as well. Don’t let the whispers and distractions of the world draw your eyes off of Him. Don’t let the fear, worry, stress and unknown scare you into running away from Him.