Scary = un-nerving, unknown, with trepidation, calming, exciting, over whelming…
I made that definition up. But it’s how I see faith as ‘scary’. I have faith in the unknown, which can be very overwhelming, and such.
Like this blog for instance. I have a huge, HUGE, complex I guess you could say. I never think my words are right, or that they serve a purpose. I love to write, but I’m not sure you’d ‘love’ to read! So yes, I have my self out there on this here site…but I always wonder if what I’m saying is what I should be, or how it should be, etc. Yup, questioning myself. I hear everyone does it, am I right?
But I have an overwhelming desire to write. To put words to paper…er, screen. I just fear that I lack direction. I love visiting blogs and you know they have a bigger picture for their blog. They know their strengths and weaknesses. They know just how God wants to move them to reach others. I want that. Oh, not their blogs, or even their subject matter, but I want to know where God leads me to write.
Not just whatever tumbles from my fingertips. It seems that I use this blog as my journal…so it’s jumbled, tumbled and pretty scattered. Not what He would have me show, is my guess.
So…here’s to finding Him in this. Finding Him in my writing.
Do you ever feel doubt about something you know you love to do? Fear of what people will say?