Somedays

Somedays, all I want to do is bury my head. Avoid reality. Take no responsibility upon my shoulders.
But that wouldn’t solve the problem, only compound it. It wouldn’t in fact make me feel better, it would just prolong the perceived agony. It’s hard to not be tempted this way. Or to find other ways to avoid. Things like allowing distractions to take their lead. One more post to read, one more email to answer, one more show to watch..one more page to read. But that wouldn’t solve the problem. Instead I am to cast my cares upon the Lord, and He promises to sustain me, not allowing me to be shaken. (Ps 55:22)

Sometimes, life seems too much. The fears and anxiety can overwhelm me. Pull me down. But I can know that all things work together for good, for those who love God, to those who are called according to His purpose. (Rom 8:28)

Right now, we’re in a season of trial, or testing. A season that hurts, but will produce great faith in Him. It seems like our whole marriage has been one big testing season, so far. But here I am…holding on still. Trying to walk in faith, and trying to turn to Him first, before allowing the emotions, fears and others words to take hold. I don’t want to be known as one tossed by the sea, or the wind, but instead speak with un-doubting faith. (James 1:6)

El Shaddai…please hold me close, don’t forget my needs, or those of my family. Guide me, give me a soft heart, that knows Your voice well. Be merciful to us. Amen

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