Yesterday, was a confidence shaker for me. Of course I knew that my confidence should be in God, but sometimes I forget just where all that means. I’m pretty good at knowing my body, have been confident in this knowledge for some time now. Until yesterday. Yesterday, it came full force that I ‘may’ have been a little TOO confident, and my focus was off. My focus was in my own abilities, not His. To be sure, this ability is a gift from Him and has a good purpose. But like many gifts, the gift itself can become the focus, and not the GIVER.
In the fear of the LORD there is strong confidence, And his children will have refuge.
For You are my hope; O Lord GOD, You are my confidence from my youth.
For the LORD will be your confidence And will keep your foot from being caught.
but Christ was faithful as a Son over His house—whose house we are, if we hold fast our confidence and the boast of our hope firm until the end.
Therefore let us draw near with confidence to the throne of grace, so that we may receive mercy and find grace to help in time of need.
These of course, would have been great to have at my fingertips yesterday. And that’s another thing…I didn’t get into His word yesterday. To be sure, I was in conversation with Him, but I wasn’t meditating on His word as well. I allowed myself to become more and more irritated and agitated as the event unfolded. I ‘thought‘ I was resting in Him, but I knew I wasn’t. I was allowing the situation to become bigger than I should have. It wasn’t until afterwards, that I saw it for what it was. And felt the confidence aspect shake and break.
My loving husbands reaction to MY reaction of this, also woke me up, and made me realize that even though I understand my body better than most, GOD still knows my body BETTER THAN I DO. Shocker, huh? It shouldn’t have been, but it was.